I sat alone tonight.
Silence.
Incense burning.
For the first time,
I can’t stand the music,
they sing words which fit
too well.
I want to confess but the words won’t flow,
and it fills me with fear to lay myself so bare.
I was alone tonight.
Still feeling pressure where your fingers
touched me.
Your taste
on my lips.
Your smell
on my skin.
I want to admit, but it makes me afraid,
it’s all so unpredictable and you’re in control.
I will sleep alone tonight.
Holding tight to memories.
Reading your messages.
Holding on.
I need to speak, but fear keeps me silent,
I want to find a table and lay my cards down for you.
Tonight, I will be alone.
Lulled by tiny blue pills
and imagining your arms holding me, like before.
I want to ask
a thousand questions.
And I’m afraid
of the answers.
(c) 2008.
jagring
November 8, 2011 at 6:13 pm
Don’t quite know why but this piece really appealed to me. It all seems too familiar yet, yet different. Loved it, for all its worth..!!
halfwaybetweenthegutter
November 8, 2011 at 7:43 pm
Thank you very much!
carolina
November 8, 2011 at 6:41 pm
I love the resounding quality of the piece and the pic…may i borrow it?
halfwaybetweenthegutter
November 8, 2011 at 7:42 pm
I don’t own the picture, so feel free
And thank you!
ivory627
November 8, 2011 at 8:34 pm
You’re not alone
Good to “meet” you; how’d you happen upon my blog?
Hannah
November 8, 2011 at 9:56 pm
Another brilliant post – so touching X
Stephanie
November 8, 2011 at 10:02 pm
I really like the almost tired pace of this poem and its straight-forward words. Nice work. Its almost disquieting which is interesting.
weareliterarycritics
November 8, 2011 at 10:30 pm
This poem was captivating. There always seems to be beauty in melancholy words. I love the expression. Thank you for sharing your thoughts/poem.
nicole
November 9, 2011 at 3:04 am
i wish that i could resonate with this, but i cannot because i have never loved a human being like you apparently have. and i am, luckily, comforted by my dog. she sleeps beside me, snoring like a man.
i hope that you can find the comfort that you seek. x
Aspergirl Maybe
November 9, 2011 at 3:52 am
Beautiful poem.
relampo
November 9, 2011 at 4:10 am
Don’t be afraid of answers, tha agonies of uncertainties are a thousand times worse than a bad answer.
belfastdavid
November 9, 2011 at 1:59 pm
What a wonderful poem.
Painful yet beautifully expressed and one that will surely resonate with us all
David
BigFieldy
November 10, 2011 at 12:09 am
I know exactly how you feel. Beautifully worded.
I'm love addicted
November 10, 2011 at 1:14 am
Beautiful post! I wish I had written it.
aloneagain3
November 10, 2011 at 3:53 am
I very much relate to this piece. I am so very much not in controll of my own situation. I don’t want to be hurt anymore, but I don’t want to let go of my husband and our 29 year marriage. I am unable to make him understand the way I feel. I know what logic says I should do, but love, emotion and commitment won’t let me. I can only pray that all will be what it should be sooner than later.
Nefarious X
November 10, 2011 at 11:56 am
I loved the urgency of the poem. I especially liked the final two stanzas of the poem. Well done.