If I could say these words aloud,
would you understand
that I’m still afraid?
feeling I’ve stepped back ten years.
If I could speak to myself,
would I ever understand I would always be insecure?
So many words,
and I’m yet to find any answers.
If I could be with you now,
hold your face in my hands and bring it close to mine,
would you see my fear?
is something I can’t contemplate like you do.
If I could stop time for myself,
ten years from now, would I have moved on
from this behaviour?
Or would I still be here,
constantly moving backwards ten years?