The 3 rules of the project are:
1) Take the pledge by copy and pasting the following into a post featuring Blog for Mental Health 2012
I pledge my commitment to the Blog for Mental Health 2012 Project. I will blog about mental health topics not only for myself, but for others. By displaying this badge, I show my pride, dedication, and acceptance for mental health. I use this to promote mental health education in the struggle to erase stigma.
2.) Link back to the person who pledged you.
3.) Write a short biography of your mental health, and what this means to you.
Depression has been both my best friend and my greatest enemy. It has taken me down many paths – most of them wrong – and taught me more valuable lessons than a lifetime of happiness could. I have respect for my depression; it’s managed to entirely control me without me even realising most of the time, and it has, over the years, shaped the person I am now. Although I’ve made many mistakes and done a lot of damage, I’m not sure I’d change who I am. I’m used to me.
I sometimes feel cheated by mental health, as though I was purposely picked to suffer. I suppose that’s the conundrum of mental illness in a way; you already blame yourself for so many things, it feels natural that depression is just another attempt by a higher being to ruin you, spitting on you and laughing at your misfortune. Paranoia has long played a part in my life; so much that it’s been difficult to work out which thoughts are real and which are anxious delusions. So it’s natural to question why this had to happen to me.
I’ll never know. Perhaps I was born this way. Even as a young girl, I know I showed traits of BPD and depression and as I grew older, those traits became something more obvious, more like a disorder. I can’t remember a time when I wasn’t wrapped in this blanket of crazy.
Depression started in puberty. Puberty started when I was nine years old.
Depression naturally led on to binge eating, then self-harm. Anorexia and, later, bulimia followed. Anxiety. Paranoia. Voices. A need to destroy myself and everything around me. Addiction. The desperate need for control, gained in any way. A deep self-hatred. Dissociation. Suicide attempts. Panic attacks.
This is my roll-call. These are who I am, and who I have been. Would I change anything?
Maybe not. Maybe I wouldn’t like me without a hint of crazy.
4) Pledge to 5 others.
Elizadolly is one of my favourite bloggers. She’s an incredibly articulate, descriptive and helpful woman, with many issues I can relate to. She speaks sense, and often brings me down to earth with her attitude.
“This blog is about my recovery.
I have had a disordered relationship with food for as long as I can remember. I would have met the diagnostic criteria for bulimia for about 4 years. So compared to others, I got off pretty easy. Interestingly, I’ve never been diagnosed with bulimia, but I have been diagnosed as anorexic. I disagree with that, skinny bulimic or fat bulimic, it was all bulimia to me. The only time I restricted my food intake without purging was for about six months prior to becoming bulimic, but I stayed within a healthy weight range for that period. So that’s my eating disorder.”
Snippets and Glimpses is written by Nataly, and covers many aspects of her life including eating disorders. She’s very informative and, most importantly, friendly and gives great advice.
“I am insatiably curious.
I think too much, I talk too much, I work too much and I drink too much. Not necessarily in that order.
I once accidentally quit smoking but don’t worry, I picked it up again as soon as I noticed.
I am a major nerd and am finally comfortable admitting it. Actually, I now revel in admitting it.
I write really lousy poetry and paint even more poorly, but art is subjective, as people keep telling me.”
WonderNutbar is a blog I’ve been meaning to mention for a while. Check it out.
“I am an Activist for Mental Health Issues from the peer perspective–that is, from the point of view of someone who lives with mental health issues. My immediate goal is to provide a clearing house and networking node for others who live with emotional and mental health problems.
Not all of us can function at a high level–at least not all of the time–and most of us are hampered by geographical, educational, social, cultural, ideological, economic, physical, intellectual and cognitive issues which can range from the unpleasant yet tolerable to the wholly unendurable. Add stigma–sorry, prejudice!–to the mix and it’s a wonder some of us ever maintain articulacy at all.”
Nicole has already been nominated by another blogger, but I feel I should mention her as well. Although her topics can be controversial, her battle with bulimia is truly inspiring and everyone should read her post on how bulimia affects the gums and teeth; it really brings home how dangerous eating disorders can be. She’s proof that eating disorders can be beaten, and I for one thank her for reminding us it can be done.
“I blog to demonstrate that life does, indeed, exist after an eating disorder, depicting my daily challenges with food, exercise, and relationships. it’s not always pretty, often times ugly, so please proceed with caution.”
Last but not least, Lost in the Winterness deserves a nomination for their searing honesty about life with borderline personality disorder.
“The author of this blog is a twenty-eight year old woman, living with several ghosts in London. She spends her time killing cockroaches, knitting pigeons and getting outraged at the state of some people at bus stops. After realising she would never achieve her dream of appearing on the Jeremy Kyle show, she took to writing this blog as means of personal catharsis. One day, she dreams of achieving a perfect balance of cosmos and chaos, and being free to wander the world in all it’s glory.
She suffers from Borderline Personality Disorder and Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder. She is on antidepressants after suffering a dissociative state when she was twenty-seven that resulted in her hospitalization on a secure ward. She is due to start Mentalisation Based Therapy in January.”
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