About the author

My favourite flavour of ice cream is raspberry ripple.

I left school at thirteen.

I’m not half as pretentious as I sound.

I have fibromyalgia.

I knit, mostly hats and scarves as they’re easiest.

I own a guitar, but don’t play it.

I am in love with a lab assistant.

Cotton wool terrifies me.

I was the first (and only) Brownie in my pack to get the astronomy badge.

I have borderline personality disorder.

My weight hovers above the ideal.

My favourite books are Girlfriend In A Coma by Douglas Copeland, and Gormenghast by Mervyn Peake.

Television doesn’t appeal to me much.

I am a die-hard fan of The Smiths.

I’m a vegetarian.

My favourite words are kumquat, haberdashery, hyperbole and sequester.

I chain smoke.

Buying toiletries is an addiction I can’t seem to quit.

I seriously dislike the word  mitten.

I have been hospitalised for bulimia.

I hate introducing myself.


241 responses to “About the author

  1. Jyoti

    May 12, 2011 at 8:39 am


    I have been dealing with medical conditions since birth too. I have Thalassemia Major. So I could relate to the feelings you have poured out in the few posts I read. Life is just so hard. But having a place to pour it all out definitely gives a bit of comfort.

    Will definitely visit this blog again.
    Take care, Best wishes.
    (owner of blog Golden Smiles and Tears of Poetry.)

    • Mental health illness support network

      May 23, 2012 at 8:30 pm

      Hi please would you be so kind to share a part of your life on my blog? would be so grateful if you would thank you.

      • halfwaybetweenthegutter

        May 24, 2012 at 8:24 am

        Hi, I’d be happy to :)

        • Mental health illness support network

          May 24, 2012 at 12:19 pm

          Thank you so much for your honesty and support.x

          • halfwaybetweenthegutter

            May 24, 2012 at 12:22 pm

            And thank you for keeping people informed about mental illness and what it entails… the more people speaking out honestly, the more stigma can be beaten x

            • Mental health illness support network

              May 24, 2012 at 12:34 pm

              I agree it is just a learning progress people need to be aware off, why suffer in silence? and us sharing and teaching others would have and will prevent some suicides i believe. The stigma will be beaten one day i want to be one of those that make sure it. i also think there should be a new law to those media who publish MENTAL as a brand?, just like all the other silly laws.

  2. franciszka

    May 13, 2011 at 3:01 am

    keep writing, keep living!
    thank you.

  3. muse217

    May 17, 2011 at 2:12 am

    Hi, I feel like I could have written this post. Let’s stick together!

  4. David Holloway

    June 26, 2011 at 10:57 pm

    What a beautiful post you are so inpirational.

  5. Astrid

    June 29, 2011 at 10:17 pm

    I really like the fact, that you have favourite words. I like “sequestrum” too. To me in English some words for terrible medicine-related things seem beautiful. I like “Tourniquet” and “Syringe”. (German pendants are “Stauschlauch” and “Spritze” – yuck!) I am thankful for learning the word “haberdashery” – it was new to me and I like it, though I don’t consider it to be as nice as “sequestrum”. There is this – well I don’t know – maybe “urban ledgend”, that most people would consider “cellar door” to be the most beautiful word in english language. (I admit, I got this information from the movie “Donnie Darko”).

  6. The Borg Poet (@theborgpoet)

    October 12, 2011 at 4:53 pm

    haberdashery is a cool word

  7. ladynyo

    October 17, 2011 at 5:00 am

    I love that you have favorite words! I do too…perhaps all poets/writers do.

    Flumox, astrogal, spondivitz (a name of a fish place!), tessoria, twit, flotsom, jetsom…..more, too, but I can’t remember.

    Lady Nyo

  8. Vimal

    October 17, 2011 at 9:36 am

    i like Girlfriend In A Coma by The Smiths
    also, Big Mouth Strikes again

    and haberdasher– sound fun

    sequester – oohsome! :)

    you seem to suffer from a lot of medical conditions
    centuries ago, you wouldn’t have even known :P

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      October 24, 2011 at 3:18 pm

      Bigmouth Strikes Again is an amazing song; the guitars are beautiful. I <3 Johnny Marr, nobody has ever sounded like him since.

      I'm glad things have moved on with diagnosing medical conditions, although sometimes I wish I was oblivious of them.

  9. David Archer

    October 17, 2011 at 7:10 pm

    You like the Smiths. I like you.
    My favourite word is dodecahedron and my favourite mathematical equation is

    Note that, given a regular pentagonal dodecahedron of edge length one, is the radius of a circumscribing sphere about a cube of edge length , and is the apothem of a regular pentagon of edge length .

    It always makes me laugh. Your About Page makes me laugh. I like laughing. I feel I am going to spend a lot of time wandering around your blogg.

    Me Like alot.


    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      October 24, 2011 at 3:17 pm

      I suspect my boyfriend would like you; he’s a sucker for a good mathmatics pun. It’s where we differ; numbers don’t feature in my life unless it’s a radio station or my weight.

      Laughing is awesome. I believe in laughing.

      As for The Smiths… I like you too, for that very reason.

  10. belfastdavid

    October 18, 2011 at 10:33 am

    I am delighted you dropped in on my blog to introduce yourself.

    My pleasure to have met you.

    I will be adding you to my blogroll this morning


  11. David Archer

    October 18, 2011 at 12:21 pm

    You did read the disclaimer I wrote above the Subscribe button? you have been warned, you may live to regret that decision. Thanks, Dave.

  12. Jared A Muscat

    October 19, 2011 at 4:49 pm

    You can’t be a writer without a disorder. Just found your blog (thanks to your like) and am stoked to have done so, keep with the writing.

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      October 24, 2011 at 3:15 pm

      I like that – “you can’t be a writer without a disorder”. I’m not what I’d consider a writer, but thank you very much. I’ll keep with it.

    • lestatia

      January 8, 2012 at 3:28 pm

      Oooh…this is so true! I’d much rather be a writer with a disorder (or 50) than not! Love that thought!

  13. judithatwood

    October 24, 2011 at 5:29 am

    I am so glad you found me, and I’m so very glad I found you. Your blog is beautiful and honest and painful all at once. Nice to have you in my subscriber list!


  14. Flavushia

    October 24, 2011 at 8:43 am

    Deal with emotional sickness and put it in words shows a very brave person.
    Thank you for share,

  15. danroberson

    October 24, 2011 at 10:08 am

    Words longer than sick or in bed,
    keep spinning around within my head,
    Diseases I have, I’m a catastrophe,
    And I thought they were just for me,
    They aren’t friendly in their games,
    I only use initials for their names,
    Disorders are treasures, of that I’m sure,
    More to write about while I endure.

    Love your blog.

  16. AOW

    October 24, 2011 at 3:06 pm

    When I read that “Girlfriend in a Coma” was one of your favorite books, I knew you were someone I would like! Then….I went on to read that you chain smoke and are addicted to buying toiletries. I think we must be soul mates! :)

    (My latest weakness is ESSIE nail polish. It is delicious!)

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      October 24, 2011 at 3:13 pm

      Any fan of Girlfriend In A Coma is a friend of mine ;) It’s such a good book.

      I’m beginning to learn that a lot of people out there chain smoke and collect toiletries; I thought I was a bit strange in that sense, but it seems not! It’s all about hair care for me at the moment, I’m buying shampoos and treatments like nobody’s business.

      I’ll check out ESSIE, I’m a big fan of nail polish ;)

  17. Sam

    October 24, 2011 at 8:35 pm

    I read: “I am a die-hard fan of The Smiths” and immediately clicked follow. That is all :D

  18. MindMindful

    October 25, 2011 at 8:23 pm

    You’ve got a certain kind of bravery, for sure, so I sure hope that you will keep on keepin’ on:) Thanks for liking my post too, ha!

  19. malakoa

    October 25, 2011 at 9:41 pm

    Thanks for stopping by. I’m glad to meet you and hope to know you better.

  20. tbnagy

    October 26, 2011 at 5:28 am

    I think we are kindred spirits, Dearheart xoxo

  21. Barefoot Baroness

    October 27, 2011 at 7:37 am

    Thanks for visiting & subscribing to my blog. Really nice to meet you. You did a lovely job of introducing yourself by the way. And as a mom of two adult daughter’s,.. I say – Leave your hair red, orange, or maybe blue. It’s a favorite color of mine. I like the individuality.
    I echo another comment above in that we need to stay together.
    I also have a thing for words. Either favorite, or not so much.
    For instance; I love the way the word Argentina feels in the mouth whe saying it out loud. Weird, yes?.

  22. Annonymous

    October 28, 2011 at 9:57 pm

    I found this blog from a comment on left on another blog. I think its awsome to have someone who speaks honestly about their experiences in order to help and inform others. I am trying to do the same but still need to remain anonymous =[ but dont want that to hinder me helping people. Check out my blog Would be awsome to be added to your blogroll if you like it =] but only if you like it lol

  23. willowdot21

    November 8, 2011 at 9:17 am

    Hi there thinking of you!

  24. eniola folarin

    November 8, 2011 at 11:47 am

    You’re honest, that’s new. Keep writing x

  25. Me

    November 8, 2011 at 12:17 pm

    I came onto this post to try find out your name, when going to post on another post which i may post on yet…
    Anywho your blog is quite inspirational, how you can talk about your journey while going through it, is such an amazing thing indeed. Its also amazing how the thoughts are all so similar to those when going through such an illness. You writing this blog is going to help so SO many people. I genuinely believe that.
    To try shed some light on the name of your blog I somewhat get it. Ill never say understand because I don’t know you, or what you have to independently go through day to day (I’v only just uncovered your blog and hated when people said ‘I understand’, to me).
    To get to the end of my wee ramble (which i hope in some way helps) that half way mark between the gutter and the stars is the most important of places where so many choices comes your way. It’s as if there is a feeling of nothing and life seems numb a hell of a lot of the time. So turning to the dark thoughts, feelings, actions seems like a better thing to feel then nothing at all… but on the other-side of that nothingness, in-between the gradient of what seems to be the good and the bad is happiness, nothing euphoric, but a genuine content and love for life.
    I’m in awe you are able to write such accurate and detailed thoughts, feelings and words. I honestly feel so amazed and grateful you subscribed to my blog and hope I can write and share things that will help you on your journey :)
    x x

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      November 15, 2011 at 2:26 am

      Thank you! I took the name of the blog from a Fatboy Slim album, which in turn comes from the quote “some of us are in the gutter, but we are all looking up at the stars”. It fits quite well with my beliefs and thoughts. I’m very much in the middle; sometimes heading towards the dark side but trying to reach the sky.

      I know it’s a big ol’ cliché, but if I can help one person, that’s more than enough for me, and I’m glad you’re attempting to do the same thing :)

  26. The Quiet Borderline

    November 8, 2011 at 12:28 pm

    Great idea for an introduction!

    I feel like I know you quite well now – It’s great!

    Take care,

    The Quiet Borderline

  27. defeaman

    November 8, 2011 at 2:12 pm

    I love the honesty of your writing…
    By the way, I really hated introducing myself too! You are not alone.
    Great blog.

  28. mormonandgay

    November 9, 2011 at 7:51 pm

    Your story is so interesting to me. I have to admit that don’t have much experience with these issues, but I wish you the best. I’m glad you found my blog. I hope you are able to find something uplifting in it. Always remember, you are never alone. :)

  29. krystalcupcake

    November 10, 2011 at 7:24 am

    that was a very nice about the author. i enjoyed you.

  30. insidethemindofstephydawn

    November 10, 2011 at 9:49 am

    You are a very brave and honest person and I admire that you can also open up about your problems. Every time I shared my complexities, they seem exaggerated, dramatised. Almost in my head. I wanted to write it down rationalise it, order the unfortunate series of events. A computer can publicise what is on your mind but a machine cannot judge you or stereotype you for writing it. If people want to listen they will and help you deal with your problems. I believe there is always someone there for you. It is letting your problems not build up or defeat you that keeps you strong and fighting. You admit the defeat and then it gets the better of you. Having diseases and mental problems that cannot be physically seen make people ignorant, but they don’t always know what it’s lilke to be you.

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      November 15, 2011 at 2:23 am

      I appreciate this comment so much. Sorry it’s taken me a while to respond, I’m a bit overwhelmed at the moment, but I do read every comment and try to eventually reply. I know what you mean about experiences seeming exaggerated; I went through a phase of wondering if I was purposely dramatising events to get attention. Now I know I wasn’t, but at the time I was very confused.

  31. kiehano

    November 14, 2011 at 9:55 am

    You’ve got a beautiful mind in there. I’ll be tearing through these pages soon. Love what I see already.

  32. Sunshine

    November 14, 2011 at 2:23 pm

    Hey, thanks for the Like and knitting a scarf is a goal I am shooting for. Hum, you say hats are easy….looks complicating, but will look into it. Thanks again!

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      November 15, 2011 at 2:22 am

      Trust me, finishing that first scarf is a brilliant feeling. It took me a long time – years in face. Hats can be easy if you find the right pattern – you can actually knit a rectange and gather it at the top to make a really simple hat.

  33. drjorn

    November 15, 2011 at 7:09 pm

    Nice blog, I specialize in chronic pain and also suffer from it. There is a newer drug called Lyrica that is approved, at least in the USA, for treatment of fibro. Otherwise for the pain aerobic exercise is important. Try water exercise. The best method for psychotherapy is cognitive therapy. You might find my videos on youtube helpful for depression. I am going to do others when I have the energy. See me on twitter under drjorn. Good luck and keep fighting – and remember – it is not that life is fair or unfair – it just is. Thanks for liking my blog on Infidelity BTW.

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      November 15, 2011 at 7:15 pm

      I’ve heard so many conflicting reports on Lyrica. I suspect it’ll be a long time before it’s approved in the UK, if ever – we’re not too great on pain drugs. I tend to steer clear of pain relief when I can because the side-effects make every day life even harder, but I’m led to believe that Lyrica doesn’t have these effects, am I right?

      I do love water exercise, but it’s expensive – a session at the local pool costs a lot, and the free sessions at the hospital require travel money. If I drove, it’d be much easier. I’ve tried cognitive therapy and found it to be the biggest waste of my time – I knew everything I was being told, and after waiting over a year for an appointment I gave up after the first session. The woman I saw was awful and kept judging my appearance.

      Thank for the visit :)

  34. Have your cake

    November 16, 2011 at 10:15 am

    Ok that’s weird. As soon as I read your favourite word was haberdashery, I thought to myself ‘ooo, that’s my friends favourite word too. I’ll comment about mine’ – which also happens to be dodecahedron and I see David has already bagged that one!

  35. Shauna Smith

    November 17, 2011 at 4:53 am

    I absolutely love your introduction!! I am new to your blog but you had liked mine so i came to check it out.. So far I love it!! I don’t know enough about fibromyalgia but I would like to learn and it looks like your blog is a good place to start! I have a website as well as the blog if you want info on it let me know..

  36. B.B.Darlington

    November 22, 2011 at 3:55 am

    I love your intro, I feel like I can relate to you on so many levels. I suffered from bulimia for 7 years, tried to hospitalize myself several times but couldn’t find the help I needed so it went on a lot longer than it should have. I hope you will be well :)

  37. Richard-Yves Sitoski

    November 22, 2011 at 1:50 pm

    Mitten mitten mitten mitten … (sorry. I like that word). Keep up the good work! Best “About” page ever.

  38. savedmylifetoday

    November 23, 2011 at 3:45 am

    Oh god… toiletries… It’s an addiction I can’t seem to kick.

    Your writing is wonderful :)

  39. polkadots1085

    November 29, 2011 at 2:53 am

    Hi! Thanks so much for following my blog! I followed you back just now. Take care, and keep strong! :)

  40. kalima123

    December 1, 2011 at 3:38 am

    Thanks so much for following my blog. And I’m smitten with your wonderfully inventive introduction. Look forward to following Your Blog!

  41. holdingtheowl

    December 1, 2011 at 5:16 am

    Hey, we have a lot in common. I have had major depression for 4 years now, and I have had PTSD for just as long. Diagnosed OCD in high school. I was diagnosed bi-polar 2 years ago. I have severe insomnia, fibromyalgia but only in my abdomen and forearms thankfully. I am struggling with my weight and introduced myself into eating disorders to try to help with my struggle even though deep down I know it’ll only make it worse. I’m glad you found me, I can’t wait to read your blog.

  42. FYT

    December 1, 2011 at 1:33 pm

    Great blog – thank you and keep up the fight.

  43. adaobiokwy

    December 1, 2011 at 3:09 pm

    Interesting life u live! Pleased 2 ‘know’ you

  44. grumpyalex

    December 2, 2011 at 6:03 pm

    hey there, thanks for stopping by my blog. I like the honesty of your writing, nice to know other people have similar issues. i dont feel so bad now lol.

  45. Jay Tow, LMHC

    December 3, 2011 at 5:12 am

    I’ve started to read your blog. I know depression very well. It was a big part of my life for over half of it. I worked hard to overcome it. Life can be better. You need to believe that.

  46. emilyatfindinghopeinchaos

    December 3, 2011 at 5:20 am

    I LOVE the title of your blog…so great. I DEFINITELY feel that way every day!! I think I am going to use it when people ask how I am doing “I am halfway between the gutter and the stars.” I don’t think you sound pretentious at all. My weight is above the ideal also. I am glad you don’t like TV. It is one of my addictions I am afraid. You sound really nice and fun. I am so glad that you are getting through the week. Sorry it has been hard. :(

  47. Jay Tow, LMHC

    December 3, 2011 at 7:17 pm

    The purpose of my blog is to let people know they aren’t alone and that we are all having a human experience.

  48. words i never said

    December 6, 2011 at 11:18 pm

    i just nominated you for an award :)

  49. friskymittens

    December 7, 2011 at 12:12 am

    It’s comforting to know you followed me, even though I have the word mitten in my URL :P

  50. Bluesander

    December 7, 2011 at 1:36 am

    I don’t know if you’ve heard this a dozen times or not…but I love the way your blog is so personally related to you. When I read an entry, I feel like I’m observing a piece of your life – as if I were in that experience. It’s real. I really love that. Don’t stop writing.

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      December 7, 2011 at 5:21 pm

      I have heard it, but appreciate it every time I hear it; it’s wonderful to be told that I can open a little door into my life just through words. Thank you.

  51. timeinmymind

    December 7, 2011 at 1:57 am

    Thanks for checking out my ramblings…

    Mukluk, Spatula, and Beluga are fun words too :)

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      December 7, 2011 at 5:20 pm

      Beluga! Yes, that’s a wonderful word. Spatula is one of my boyfriend’s favourites.

  52. strawberryjamntoast

    December 7, 2011 at 8:00 am

    Hey there :-)

    In no particular (but possibly semi-related order): I, too, am vegetarian, don’t care for TV, was a Brownie and can be a little on the ‘comfortable’ side of my ideal weight. Oh, and I also have a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder.

    Anyway, thanks for following my blog and it’s nice to meet you :-)

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      December 7, 2011 at 5:09 pm

      Haha, I like you! It’s amazing how many out there are so similar; it’s almost scary. Hooray for veggies :)

  53. petelangman

    December 7, 2011 at 9:03 am

    Hi there,

    I’m flattered by the follow, and found your writing harrowing but compulsive …

    Oh, and I think Wilde said we are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.

    I have no more words for you other than have some love.


    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      December 7, 2011 at 5:06 pm

      I think the original quote is Wilde’s, yes. I took it from a Fatboy Slim album though, it seemed to fit very much with where I am in life (if that doesn’t seem too clichéd!). Thank you very much for the follow back, I very much liked reading through your blog.

  54. danroberson

    December 8, 2011 at 6:01 am

    When I’m rushing around I don’t see, but when I’m broken and looking up I’m naked and free,
    crushed by the weight of the world and vulnerable to all, there’s not much to be except me.
    I like the way you are transparent.

  55. ficklenotions

    December 8, 2011 at 7:32 am

    Your writing is just lovely. I was so easily absorbed by your blog. Speaking of which, thanks for following mine! I’ll be glad to read more of your posts in the future! :)

  56. John Evans

    December 8, 2011 at 8:31 am

    I love your writing style. I wish to keep up with your wonderful writing. Keep writing, you are inspirational! I am following your blog and keeping up with your posts. Thank you so much for your share.

  57. objets d'vertu

    December 9, 2011 at 2:28 pm

    Thank you for visiting 20 Lines and thank you more for expressing who you are with such a wonderful frankness. Keep going.

  58. Brian

    December 11, 2011 at 1:34 am

    Interesting. One of my favorite books is Life After God, also by Douglas Coupland, and I work in a factory making ice cream for Nestle. My favorite flavor is straight Classic Chocolate. Yum . . .

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      December 12, 2011 at 12:47 am

      You make ice cream? Haha, jealous. I haven’t read Life After God, it’s the only one I can never seem to get hold of. I’ll have a look on Amazon tomorrow. Cheers!

  59. smile breathe and go slowly

    December 12, 2011 at 2:12 am

    Thanks for checking out my lil space in the blogging world :) I have a feeling I’ll be back ..lots.. love the way you write :)

  60. kathiesramblingsKathie

    December 12, 2011 at 12:12 pm

    Thank You for checking out my blog and taking time to like my poem. I too have fybromyalgia….which enjoys its relationship to depression and fuels my ups and downs. Maybe you would like to check out my short story – on the inside looking in – I believe depression fuels talent and creativity you only need look at the names in this piece of writing to appreciate that. It is unfinished but it is based on my ‘hospitalisation’.

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      December 12, 2011 at 3:44 pm

      I’ll certainly check your short story out, and thanks for commenting! Fibro and depression seems to go together so well… and it’s a horrible combination at times. I hope you find some relief.

  61. Cauldrons and Cupcakes

    December 14, 2011 at 2:32 am

    {{{HUGS}}} Sending much Love and Light your way. Thanks for visiting my blog. It seems we’ve shared much of the same road. Keep writing. It’s beautiful sharing, and there is powerful healing in those words. For you. For others. Writing has kept me going through some of the darkest times in my life. I’ll include you in my nightly healing meditations. Keep shining that beautiful Soul Light of yours. :)

  62. darknessilluminated

    December 15, 2011 at 4:05 am

    Ah, the Smiths! You have fabulous taste!

  63. judithatwood

    December 23, 2011 at 2:27 am

    I hate that this comment is way down at the bottom, but please check out this link — you are on my list, and I can’t think of anyone who deserves it more!

  64. Bluesander

    December 26, 2011 at 1:19 am

    I’m sure you’ve been nominated a dozen times before, but I’ve nominated you for the Versatile Blogger Award (
    I take so much inspiration from your blog and I feel like I take a piece of your life every time I read a post.
    Happy holidays,

  65. meredith

    December 29, 2011 at 7:59 pm

    Best introduction I’ve ever read or heard. Congratulations on your astronomy badge!

  66. Bluesander

    December 30, 2011 at 9:48 am

    Happy New Year, dear!
    I’ve nominated you for the Kreativ Blogger Award ( and do keep writing. I love your posts.
    Much love,

  67. mycogds

    December 31, 2011 at 7:11 am

    One foot in front of the other. Consider love sent.

  68. elizabeth2286

    January 2, 2012 at 4:49 am

    Thanks for following, your blog is pretty cool and funny. Keep writing!

  69. Katie Michele

    January 4, 2012 at 1:17 pm

    I find your blog very inspiring and insightful. I’ll definitely be keeping tags on it from now on! P.s. thanks for the follow.

  70. Renate Hechenberger

    January 4, 2012 at 6:52 pm

    Thanks for visiting & subscribing to my blog. Your blog is truly one of a kind. Have not read a lot yet, but what you are doing here falls for me under “soulcontract”. As you may have seen on my blog, I am on the far left of the “fruit cakes”, so I love what you have to say. You share from your heart and soul and it forms part of your healing I guess; its beautifully done and a service that is very kind and so important for so many people. I can feel the agony in some pages and yet you have so much strength and courage and an incredible light shines through you that touches many. Please do continue; it is the raw emotion that hits you straight, and that is so precious for so many.

  71. suzideanne

    January 4, 2012 at 10:45 pm

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      January 5, 2012 at 1:56 am

      Aw, thank you Suzi. Permission to steal the image?

      • suzideanne

        January 5, 2012 at 4:08 pm

        i “borrowed” from someone…not sure who…so i guess you can steal my borrow! ;)

  72. judithatwood

    January 5, 2012 at 12:44 am

    I am honored to tell you that I have named you for the 7×7 Links Award. You may learn more about the award at my post, at by tomorrow morning. Congratulations. I would include an image, but I am unsure as to how to get one in a comment. Thanks for your well-thought-out blog.

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      January 5, 2012 at 1:56 am

      Thanks, Judith! I don’t think you can post pictures in comments, I’ve never tried… maybe you can’t.

  73. meredith

    January 5, 2012 at 2:48 pm

    This is the love I’m sending:

    May you be brave,
    May you be wise,
    May you be happy.


  74. elizadolly

    January 8, 2012 at 9:33 am

    Heyhey! So despite my slackness I have finally got around to nominating you for the Versatile Blogger and Tell Me About Yourself awards.
    Please find my initial response here:
    And my nominations here:

    Thanks :)

  75. friskymittens

    January 8, 2012 at 12:29 pm

    I nominated you for a versatile blogger award.
    Check it out! :)

  76. lestatia

    January 8, 2012 at 3:33 pm

    Thanks for sharing this bit of you. I find your intro very intriguing. I look forward to reading some of your blogs.

  77. drwilda

    January 10, 2012 at 9:39 pm

    May you find the sunshine in your life.

  78. Pudgy Padre

    January 11, 2012 at 2:17 pm

    I hope it’s okay, I subscribed to your blog.

    Hmmm…..I can’t say my weight hovers. There’s too much of me to hover.

    Your description of yourself sounds like a very interesting person. :)

    I hate those situations where you’re expected to “Introduce yourself and tell us a little about yourself.” My response is usually, “Look at me….this is what you get. Questions…ask.”

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      January 11, 2012 at 2:19 pm

      “There’s too much of me to hover” – ach, that’s actually my feelings at the moment! I’m around thirteen stones right now; not great on a 5ft 5″ body. I don’t mind you subscribing at all, in fact I really appreciate it :)

      I think being asked to introduce yourself is one of the most difficult things. How do you sum up a person in a few lines?!

      • Pudgy Padre

        January 11, 2012 at 2:39 pm

        I REALLY don’t like the self-introduction thing. But it is rather fun to say things out of the ordinary. Introduce yourself as the renowned Dr. Fuller Beauvyn Maynur, adventurer, speaker, lecturer, storyteller, politician, and all-around oddity.

        I quit focusing on my weight because it became an obsession. I’m learning to accept me, control that which I can control, let go of what I can’t, and live life in the meantime. That’s been a journey within itself. But as long as you’re still breathing, there’s living to be done. :D

        • halfwaybetweenthegutter

          January 11, 2012 at 8:17 pm

          Ha, I like your introduction technique. I usually do a mad wave and pull a face; it seems to work. People just think, “well, she’s a bit batty” and leave me alone.

          I’m pleased you’ve quit the focus on your weight; it’s such a damaging thing, and I wish I could get this across to everyone who spends their life on a diet or hating their bodies because of numbers and sizes. I’m impressed, and hope to manage the same thing one day. I suppose it’s just been my life for a long time, and it’s hard to give up the habit.

          • Pudgy Padre

            January 11, 2012 at 9:22 pm

            Diet = unhealthy. Moderation = healthier.
            I’m learning (still) to accept the shell but focus on the nut inside.
            Habits die hard, but they can die.

  79. Sophia Showes

    January 12, 2012 at 7:59 am

    Great post!

  80. Stephen Bort

    January 16, 2012 at 2:44 pm

    I just started my wordpress site, “when is a party not a party?”, last week, and you were officially the first person to “like” one of my posts: “Becoming What You Are.” Thanks very much for that! Paul Tournier’s book, “The Meaning of Persons” really speaks to me about my own experiences with depression. I still struggle with who I am and how that “I am” is personified. I’ll revisit your site often!

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      January 16, 2012 at 4:55 pm

      Thanks Stephen, and very nice to meet you. Apparently I’m a lot of people’s first liker… heh. I really liked your post, and your way of writing. I’ll check that book out, cheers. Keep writing.

  81. Grace Chan

    January 16, 2012 at 5:33 pm

    Hi there, at very rare times that someone follows my blog I just can’t help being thankful about it. I do hope you can find something worthwhile in my writings other than my rants. Haha. :D And I’m looking forward to read your entries. :)

  82. doesmybumlookbiginthis

    January 17, 2012 at 8:52 pm

    I nominated you for the Blog for Mental Health 2012 pledge because i think you’re awesome :) Here’s the post – :) xx

  83. someoneiswakingupforgetting

    January 17, 2012 at 10:29 pm


  84. Words From the Moon

    January 17, 2012 at 10:30 pm

    I admire your honesty in talking about those things that most of us want to run and hide from, especially when we have not experienced it ourselves or with anyone we know. Thanks for following my blog. Have you ever listened to the music of Elliott Smith? He too suffered from depression and also addictions, and the fans he has who themselves are struggling too seem to find support and solace in his songs – and even if you don’t, his music is lovely.

  85. Tya Khan

    January 21, 2012 at 8:05 am

    I just want to let you know that you’ve been nominated for the versatile-blogger-award. Check out the rules and all on my blog.

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      January 21, 2012 at 5:54 pm

      Oh, thank you Tya! I’ve already been nominated a few times, so if you don’t mind I’ll pass. Although I’ll certainly mention your nomination and blog.

  86. Renewed Sense of Self

    January 23, 2012 at 1:34 am

    I very much enjoy your blog page. It’s interesting to meet others that you feel may be somewhat similar to yourself – or that you can kinda relate to on some level. Thank you for stopping by my page and providing a form of encouragement by showing an appreciation for my posts.

  87. snacksandwrites

    January 23, 2012 at 3:19 am

  88. someoneiswakingupforgetting

    January 23, 2012 at 6:37 am

    Hey! You’ve been nominated by me for three separate awards: the Candle Light Award, the One Lovely Blog Award, and the Versatile Blog Award. You can check it out at here:
    Congratulations! This is pretty awesome.

  89. Juliette

    January 24, 2012 at 9:47 am

    Hurrah! A Smiths fan!! :)
    Thanks for following my blog/website!

  90. Tya Khan

    January 24, 2012 at 6:54 pm

    Hello I nominated you for the Liebster blog award ! Please check the rules on all the best:))))

  91. essaybee2012

    January 26, 2012 at 5:56 am

    Thanks for liking Goodness Breeds. I’m behind on your new blogs, but I’ll be catching up tomorrow morning. Cheers!

  92. essaybee2012

    January 29, 2012 at 12:21 am

    I spent hours today reading your blog. Didn’t get to all of them, of course, but a whole lot. You were the first to send a like for my blog, and I truly look forward to visiting your site, so I thought I’d spend a Saturday dipping into your world. I’ll be back soon. Take care.

  93. judithatwood

    January 29, 2012 at 1:03 am

    Hello, friend. I’m naming you for the Sunshine Award. You can see the details at . I am proud to be your friend in writing!

  94. judithatwood

    January 29, 2012 at 1:27 am

    Hi — I’m back to tell you that I’ve named you for The Sunshine Award, and as my favorite blog. Your honesty is staggering, and so refreshing! You can see the details at Congratulations, and Yay, you!!

  95. essaybee2012

    January 29, 2012 at 1:45 pm

    I know you’ve received tons of awards (deservedly), but I just received my first (Versatile Blogger), and your site was the first I could think of to nominate in return. I benefit greatly from reading your blogs, relating to the common expressions of depression as I do, but also to the little joys you experience from travels to various parks, beaches and cities in your seaside region. Thanks so much!

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      January 30, 2012 at 2:04 pm

      Congratulations on the nomination, you deserve it! And thank you very, very much. I’m always grateful. And thanks for your lovely comment :)

  96. Catherine Burden

    January 29, 2012 at 4:57 pm

    I love your honesty about mental and physical pain. I have nominated you for the Liebster Blog Award, check out my blog for more info

  97. Life: Between the lines

    January 30, 2012 at 12:05 am

    nice intro, made me smile actually. I love too many words to have just one however. I am manic depressive due to emptiness mostly and can’t seem to get out of it. How I hope my doc would medicate me for this depression but she told me to get a life, easy to say when you have no one around. In any case, WP is sort of a social life, I think.

  98. judithatwood

    February 8, 2012 at 5:45 pm

    I’ve just selected you blog as award recipient of two awards — The ABC award (Awesome Blog Content,) and Mrs. Sparkly’s Ten Commandments Award. You can find details about both of these at the following link: Yay, you!

  99. judithatwood

    February 16, 2012 at 8:17 pm

    I want to let you know that I have awarded you the Candle Light Award for your courage and your unbridled honesty in the writing of your blog. You can read about the award at Congratulations!

  100. nocturnefirefay- Miss L.F xoxo

    February 18, 2012 at 2:03 pm

    Just letting you know that I gave you a versatile blogger award- no pressure to take part; but if you do wish to know what it entails, just click my link
    Congrats either way and have a lovely weekend.

  101. lookingforapurpose

    March 1, 2012 at 11:46 pm

    You are one of my nominations for the Versatile Blogger Award!! I hope you don’t mind being one. If you want to know how to accept ther rules are on my new post.

  102. Hannah

    March 2, 2012 at 10:30 am

    I just wanted to drop you a quick note to ask if you’d be willing to do a little guest post on my blog please – I want to set up a page with people’s stories of Mental Illness, to let others know that they’re not alone, and hopefully create a friendly place where people feel comfortable to share and support each other… Drop me a note on my blog if you’re interested, and I’ll send you my email address… Take Care xx

  103. thetrissgutza

    March 2, 2012 at 11:33 pm

    I’m nominating you for the Versatile Blogger Award:

  104. nocturnefirefay- Miss L.F xoxo

    March 3, 2012 at 10:10 am

    Just letting you know that I’ve given you a sunshine award.
    No pressure to take part but if interested, just follow my link here for the details.
    Congrats and have a lovely weekend.

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      March 6, 2012 at 4:19 am

      Thank you dear :) I’m very behind with award posts, but it’s so appreciated x

      • nocturnefirefay- Miss L.F xoxo

        March 6, 2012 at 5:03 am

        You’re welcome :)

      • nocturnefirefay- Miss L.F xoxo

        March 6, 2012 at 2:51 pm

        This is weird I was sure I already responded to this note from you but WP is showing the message again as new- so apologies if you recieve a response from me twice- anyway you’re very welcome sweets and take your time- there really is no urgency or pressure attached :) Enjoy your week

  105. MindMindful

    March 5, 2012 at 5:22 pm

    Hi there!

    Within the last month I “awarded” you a Versatile Blogger award. Apparently, I didn’t do it quite right, so just wanted to let you know……… Peace be with you!

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      March 6, 2012 at 4:15 am

      Hey, thank you very much for the award and I apologise for being so lax in keeping up with comments.

  106. zenandtheartofborderlinemaintenance

    March 7, 2012 at 1:06 pm

    LOL, this is wonderful. I am addicted to toiletries also and kumquat is definitely a favorite word. It just rolls off the tongue so easily. Too bad I’m allergic. They don’t like me! I break out in hives if I LOOK at one. I’m with you on the television thing. :)

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      March 9, 2012 at 12:27 am

      You know… I’ve never tasted a kumquat! I’ve never even seen one. What are they like?

      • zenandtheartofborderlinemaintenance

        March 9, 2012 at 5:15 am

        The oval kumquat is a fruit that looks like any citrus fruit, with an orange rind. The fruits are oblong, up to 2 in (5 cm) long. Unlike the common citrus, which have a rind which is inedible raw, oval kumquats have an edible sweet rind. The flesh, however, is not as sweet as the rind, and the juice is quite acidic and sour, with a lemon-like flavor. This fruit is generally eaten fresh, with its rind. It can also be processed into preserves, jams, and other products. (from Wikipedia).

        They look like oranges that have been through a difficult time and have trouble fitting in with the rest of the citrus world. :-) They are hard and small and rather weird-looking (to me). They smell sour, pungent. The first time I picked one up, wondering what it was, I broke out in hives the size of half-dollars. They aren’t very appealing to me, the smell, the look…but the name is delicious, indeed. (from me). :-)

  107. fracturedangel

    March 11, 2012 at 4:32 am

    I’m not sure if you’ve got this one already, but I nominated you for the Very Inspiring Blogger Award:

  108. slackergenius

    March 15, 2012 at 1:02 pm

    Few blogs encapsulate what motivates me. Your musings not only identify my demons, but calls them by name. Thank you for a stark portrayal of tormented life.

  109. Tallulah "Lulu" Stark

    March 22, 2012 at 12:48 pm

  110. judithatwood

    March 22, 2012 at 8:39 pm

    Hello, my friend. I hope you are feeling a little better this afternoon. Please don’t worry at all about this if you don’t want, but I’ve named you for The Versatile Blog Award. You can find all the particulars at . Congratulations, and no expectations — you just deserve this for all the different sides of your life you’re willing to share with us. Congratulations, and Yay You!!

  111. C Darko

    March 23, 2012 at 3:19 pm

    I send you love, hang in there!!!
    From Chicago USA thinking about u!

  112. Colourfade

    March 24, 2012 at 3:56 am

    Keep going ,keep living…

  113. Mandi

    March 24, 2012 at 5:38 am

    So I’m trying to do the whole question game thing… but don’t have a clue how… so here’s the link!

  114. Jaen Wirefly

    March 28, 2012 at 3:59 pm

    This is a great introduction! Puts mine to shame;)

  115. Misz μεταμόρφωσις

    March 30, 2012 at 9:09 pm

    been following your blog for a while now, fascinated with your descriptions of emotions, life.
    time to say hi :)

  116. selenedepackh

    April 4, 2012 at 7:30 pm

    thanks for connecting. your work is gorgeous.

  117. alittlecoconut

    April 5, 2012 at 1:33 am

    I just wanted to say that I really love your blog.

  118. wordwanderlust

    April 5, 2012 at 10:14 am

    Hi there. Wishing you a special journey as you travel between heaven and hell. Your posts are alive and offer a connection raw with emotion. May your story be filled by the colours in your dreams. Namaste! PS Thanks for the follow.

  119. Lucianus Mauricius

    April 8, 2012 at 8:32 am

    We got things in common pal

  120. slackergenius

    April 9, 2012 at 4:51 am

    I wanted to thank you for this wonderful body of work. Like dour, melancholy daydreams, I consume your words and live them in my head. Your life on display has been affirming and inspiring. Thank you for continuing to weave this tapestry.

  121. PAZ

    April 25, 2012 at 9:30 pm

    I just found out I had been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder by the therapist I’d been seeing over a year. Today was our last session and the only reason why I even found out was because I asked for a copy of the termination report before I left and said goodbye.

    It’s so strange because if anything, I thought I was bipolar 2. And it’f funny because I remember my first comment to you was about being BP and not BPD, then I mentioned my close friend with BPD who I can’t stand sometimes. hehe.

    I just thought I’d tell you since you write a lot about it. I’m going to write a post about it as soon as I get the chance.


  122. PAZ

    April 25, 2012 at 9:31 pm

    You were also my very first follower, before I knew I could have any. :)

  123. frankoshanko

    April 29, 2012 at 10:22 pm

    Thank you for sharing! Your stories have helped me better understand my ex-fiance’s behavior. She has chronic pain and BPD as well. God bless you and her! ( :

  124. Subhan Zein

    May 11, 2012 at 3:09 pm

    Hi there,

    To find your blog is a pleasure I have been indulging myself with. I have deep respect for you. Keep penning and keep inspiring, I am sure lots of readers have found your posts equally entertaining and enlightening!
    I have a joyful ride in your blog, and now I’d like to invite you to visit mine. Thank you and have a wonderful day, my friend! :-)

    Subhan Zein

  125. Sora Jenny♥Tiểu Y Thần

    May 15, 2012 at 3:33 am

    Hi there.
    my nickname is Sora. i’m vietnamese, do you know that? i temporary settlement learn English but i don’t understand all your profile. Anyway i hope to be your friend…tks ^^

  126. mariner2mother

    May 15, 2012 at 8:01 pm

    Thanks for following my blog. I really like how you write, and am looking forward to reading more. I am trying to understand my bipolar mother better, while at the same time, trying to deal with my sometimes depression, all the time eating issues, and working on healing from an abusive childhood, all the while, being mom to a wonderful boy who lives with Sensory Processing Disorder, dyslexia, and is very intuitive. My blog is pretty much a journal for me. A place to get it all out, in words. And I like to share things that I have found to be helpful in my life.

    Sending greetings from across the pond.

  127. caitlambert

    May 22, 2012 at 7:54 am

    Hey, very deep blog. I have a mom with bipolar II, so I get it. It just seems like this portrays the downside of everything. My mom is just fine and loves life because of her medicine, so try to think positively. I have anxiety problems and I use writing to get through the issues. Good blog nonetheless.

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      May 22, 2012 at 8:35 am

      I know I do mention the downsides a lot; I suppose it was the whole point of this blog. I do try to mention the good things though; my amazing boyfriend, good times I have, successful appointments…does it really comes across as that negative?

      • caitlambert

        May 23, 2012 at 6:08 pm

        I guess for me it does, but not all types of mental illnesses have a negative side 24/7. If I had a severe mental illness and I read this blog, I would either see it as there is not a lot of ups to my problem, or I guess I should just look forward to seeing my doctor. It’s just the impression I get. Plus being someone who has practically lived with a bipolar II parent, there was a lot of “doom and gloom” in my childhood, but once I became an adult she is happier. She finally got on the right meds, which usually that’s all it takes sometimes. It’s a good blog toward educating people who think all mental illnesses are just “crazy/psychotic,” but it is quite sad to read about it if you’re a person living it already, or trying to make the best of the situation.

        • halfwaybetweenthegutter

          May 23, 2012 at 6:19 pm

          I don’t know… part of me really wants to disagree. The positive response to medication and getting over (or at least trying to) eating disorders, and saying how I’ve changed in certain respects to BPD behaviour… I suppose I thought of that as positive.

          • caitlambert

            May 24, 2012 at 6:42 am

            It is positive, it’s just a dark kind of positive I in my opinion.

            • halfwaybetweenthegutter

              May 24, 2012 at 8:17 am

              I can buy that; I do sometimes worry it’s a bit too dark, but if it wasn’t… I wouldn’t be being honest. Cheers for the feedback.

  128. SummerSolsticeGirl

    May 22, 2012 at 6:54 pm

    I’ve own a guitar since I was 8 and I don’t play it either LOL

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      May 23, 2012 at 1:13 pm

      Haha, it’s shameful. I’m tempted to get a bass and try that; I’ve always preferred the sound.

  129. SaneSamantha

    May 23, 2012 at 10:34 pm

    Thank you for stopping by, and liking, my blog. Its appreciated. I like your introduction :)

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      May 24, 2012 at 8:22 am

      Cheers Samantha :) I look forward to reading more from you, and thanks for dropping in!

  130. vimal

    May 28, 2012 at 5:09 pm

    you may have got this already :-)
    anyway –

  131. eniola folarin

    June 4, 2012 at 1:28 pm

    Hey, I have nominated you for the beautiful blogger award :) You can check my blog for details xx

  132. Sue

    June 11, 2012 at 2:42 am

    I hate the word “panties”. It makes my skin go all crawley.

  133. anonanna

    June 12, 2012 at 4:49 pm

    I find you truly inspiring, and think you’re a really good writer. I love the way you narrate your day (I know it sounds dorky, but as a writer, I appreciate your writing style). Nominated you for your Lovely Blog: :)

  134. applejaxe

    June 14, 2012 at 7:24 pm

    I enjoy your blog, here is a special nomination for you. Check it out.

  135. Summer Moon

    June 16, 2012 at 12:30 pm

    Hi there! I’ve just nominated you for the Outstanding Blogger Award. :) You can read more about it here if you’d like: Please don’t feel you need to accept it if you don’t want to. No hard feelings if you don’t. I just wanted to nominate you ’cause I love your blog. You have such honesty in your writing and I think you deserve this award. :)

  136. Mandi

    June 20, 2012 at 1:28 am

    PS… that post replying to Anonymous54 was to my mother. She doesn’t know that I know. She didn’t update her IP address on her computer. But even then, I would still know. And all the stuff she said is SO opposite of what she says when its not public. SOOOOO opposite. I am an embarrassment to our family so she’ll do anything to try and make it look like she’s doing so much to “help” me. Nope, my parent’s have caused the most DAMAGE! Anyway, thought you might find that interesting. She has posted a lot. I don’t know how she COULDN’T know that I know by now… but maybe not. Or maybe it’s just worth it to her to keep the image!

    • halfwaybetweenthegutter

      June 20, 2012 at 7:17 pm

      Really? Excuse me if I’m speaking out of turn (because she’s your mother) but… wtf? Does she really think you wouldn’t find out?

      That’s messed up. Huge invasion of privacy, right there.

      • Mandi

        June 21, 2012 at 5:30 am

        I know. My blog is public, but we have NO CONTACT. My parent’s know how badly I crash when they contact me, but think it’s all just a game to me. My mom used to comment under her real name, Lori, but now comments under Anonymous54. Seriously! In stats it just adds another comment under “Lori” when she posts. I don’t hold too much back though anymore. I am SO pissed at them right now. I blogged awhile back about my aunt Lisa and Darlene. Darlene’s memorial is next Friday which means my WHOLE family of douche bags will be there. No one wants me to go because I always end up back in the hospital. But I’m f’ing tired of letting them control what I do and don’t do! I have more of a right to be there than they do. Assholes!

        • halfwaybetweenthegutter

          June 21, 2012 at 8:04 pm

          I’m not surprised you’re pissed; I would be! I’d be fuming. Sometimes parents… eh, they just don’t get it. They think that because they’re your parents, they automatically know better. Heck, they sometimes assume they know you better than you know yourself. I don’t understand why they’re like that, but then again I don’t have kids.

          You have every right to be at the memorial. I say go, hold your head high, and prove them wrong about the hospital this time <3

  137. dividedtruth89

    July 14, 2012 at 7:49 am

  138. runningonsober

    August 17, 2012 at 3:31 am

    I love the Oscar Wilde quote reference, quite a witty name!
    Big fan of The Smiths, Hatful of Hollow is on my Top 10 Albums list.
    I am a shampoo and conditioner addict.
    Cotton wool? Oh dear god. My skin is itchy just thinking about it.
    Chain smoking. Gladly not anymore. Running is my top vice now.
    Nice to meet you!

  139. Amber

    August 17, 2012 at 1:58 pm

    Thank you for the comment on my blog earlier. I didn’t see a contact form,so…
    my husband has MPD (now called DID) so I can empathize (even a little bit) with what you are going through. I’m a fan of The Smiths as well. What kind of guitar do you have?

    • halfwaybetweenT

      August 17, 2012 at 3:12 pm

      Hi! I dithered about adding a contact form, but decided to keep everything here as much as possible; it’s hard enough to keep track sometimes as it is.

      I have an acoustic, it’s under my bed in two pieces so I have no idea what model it is. I’m sorely tempted to buy a new one from a second hand shop but I have arthritis in my fingers now so not sure if it’s a good idea. However, it’s always awesome to meet another Smiths fan!

      DID… I think it can be similar to BPD in many ways. Certainly when it comes to dissociation. I wish your husband all the best; and you too. Thanks very much for the comment.

      • Amber

        August 17, 2012 at 4:48 pm

        Yeah,I can understand that. Thank you for the kind words (for both of us),but I’ll be sure to let my hubby know. Hope you have a great weekend. xo

  140. The Quiet Borderline (back in hospital)

    August 20, 2012 at 8:23 am

    I have awarded you with the Strong Person Award. An award I made myself and has been a pleasure to award all of you well deserving people.

    Feel free to collect your award here:

    All the best,

    The Quiet Borderline

  141. ocdtalk

    August 22, 2012 at 3:06 am

    I’m so glad I’ve found your wonderful blog……..looking forward to exploring it more and reading your posts.

  142. Unconfirmed Bachelorette

    September 3, 2012 at 7:52 pm

    I enjoy your blog very much. I’m not quite up on this whole awards thing, but I have nominated you for the Inspiring Blog and One Lovely Blog awards. Here: You can pass the torch by giving me a shout-out, then stating 7 facts about yourself and nominating 15 bloggers whom you find inspiring or lovely. Or just skip it and post whatever you’d like. :)

  143. anxiouselephant

    October 31, 2012 at 1:31 am

    I’ve just seen that you’ve already been given this award, but I’ve already done the post, so you’ve been renominated (you deserve it again anyway!) This is for creating beauty with your words!
    I have nominated you for the “very inspiring blogger award”, you can read more about it here:
    Lots of love, Ellie xx

  144. Human In Recovery

    November 2, 2012 at 4:10 pm

    Hey there. Sorry I haven’t visited in a while, got caught up in my drama. Just wanted to let you know I’m thinking of you and you are still very much one I value so much. Your blog is going to be one of several highlighted in tomorrow’s post, Nov 3.

  145. Tracy Rose

    January 11, 2013 at 10:41 pm


    Healthline is interested in contributing a guest post to We would be open to contributing any blog that would be of interest to your readers. Healthline bloggers have been featured on a variety of sites including:

    Washington Times:
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    Please let me know if you have any questions. Thank you in advance for your consideration.

    Warm Regards,

  146. ashsappley

    February 27, 2013 at 11:07 pm

    Hi there! I have nominated you for the Versatile Blogger Award. Thanks for writing – I’ve really enjoyed your site.
    You can check out the award and more info here, if you’d like:

  147. OnX

    March 30, 2013 at 12:53 pm

    Hi Half!

    I wanted to drop by to see how you were doing. When I read about all that you’ve been going through physically, I could really relate. I thought that insensitive doctors were only an American phenomenon. I was apparently wrong. Then, on rare occasion, we find one who truly wants to help and we’re so grateful that it feels as though an enormous burden has been lifted. That has happened to me. In my case, it was about receiving proper meds for fibro, cysts in the synovia of two vertebrae and congenital issues with one of my hips. I told one doc that if she didn’t find some way of helping with the pain, I would not be alive in three weeks and I meant it. I got help–not from her, I might add–just as the three weeks was coming to an end. In this instance, it was a prejudice of the federal government and a medical school meme that said “All narcotics are bad! Don’t give them long-term unless the patient is at death’s door!” I kid you not.

    I just wanted to let you know that you’re not alone. I must admit that I now understand the frustration of not being able to comment or otherwise communicate with a blog’s writer, so I think I’ll turn comments on on my About page. Do I even have an About page? If not, I’ll put one together–later. I, too, live upside down a lot of the time, and happily so. I am a creature of the night, although not a vampire. *grin*

    You take care!


  148. Patricia watson

    April 2, 2013 at 2:35 am

    Thank you for sharing your life. I have a 24 year old granddaughter with all the same issues. She refuses to see this and constantly blames everyone else. She has major swings sometimes from hour to hour. Is there anyway to get her to seek help? Even when I mention this she gets hysterical. It’s like dealing with a 2 year olds temper tantrums. We can’t take it anymore, I have never known anyone like her in my life and I’m 70 years old. :(


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